How does one traverse from solely breathing to soulfully living?
Long ago and far away, there lived a divorced mom.
This story is one of her total revolution-
from striving to thriving.
I know, I know- it seems impossible, but it’s true.
That mama- her heart was scarred and her spirit was torn. The perfect dream life had arrived, only to be ripped from her hands. Her new goal was survival. Her new life held difficult choices; some of which were unwisely made. But her old soul begged for reprieve from the delicate balance of the many hats she wore, especially the one of “working mother.”
Not just working mother, but working mother to a special needs child- a beautiful girl with a charming voice who lit up any room into which she walked.
Working moms have time only for things that must be accomplished- yet somehow this mom made time for her girl. And somehow she managed to make time for church. Probably because her own parents had taken her almost from the moment she was born. While Sunday could have been a rest and catch-up-on-the-house day, it was, instead, a quest for truth and peace.
The strife in her soul was vicious. The kind that keeps you awake at night. The kind that makes you do things you wish you could undo and say things you wish you had swallowed.
She didn’t understand how God could let bad things happen to good people. She had grown up in a Christian home, attended Christian school, and graduated from Christian college. Didn’t God see all the good she had done?
She didn’t perceive how people change- how they say they feel and believe one way, yet every action they made was contrary to their own statements. Why do people change? Why do they make such huge mistakes?
She really didn’t comprehend how those who say they love Christ were unable to show His love. Weren’t they supposed to help a sister up instead of passing by on the other side?
And she began to search for answers to those questions. After exploring her community and searching online, she found herself pouring over the pages of her worn Bible all over again- but this time was different.
She was no longer a girl who was checking off her Bible reading for the day because that was the right thing to do.
She was searching for an answer to the strife. An answer that would move her soul from striving to thriving.
She didn’t pray because that’s what she had been taught to do her entire life.
She prayed because her heart knew no other course to open the windows of mercy from Heaven she so desperately needed.
And through His Word and her prayers, God met the single mama all over again.
This time she got it- His ginormous, indescribable love for her.
She began to trust Him once more. Oh she had never stopped trusting Him for salvation and the gift of Heaven. But this time, she trusted Him for the gift of each day of life on earth. Her heart began to grasp, little by little, minute by minute, spent in His Word, that:
God doesn’t want a religious experience for me; He wants a personal relationship with me.
And that is how the single, divorced mama to a special needs child transformed
from striving to thriving…
She’s the one who, many years later, outlined that list of 12 Bible Verses for when you feel like giving up…
and the one who stopped asking God where He was in all the mess and started asking God to reveal Himself to her.
And yes, she’s the same one who, just last week, wrote:
God wants to give us something far greater than the gift of an answer. He wants to give us Himself.
Redeemed by God’s grace
and revolutionized for His glory,
This post was inspired by Casting Crowns new album “Thrive”-available January 28th. Learn more about what it means to Thrive at facebook.com/castingcrowns