My beautiful girl, Merry Christmas! One week ago yesterday, you grew ill so quickly that I was unsure of how to best help you. You’ve barely been able to swallow anything for several days and unless the Lord gives us a miracle, I think this may be your last Christmas…
Oh Taylor, Here we are in the emergency room, a place I try my hardest to stay away from. When you lost control of your eyelids and your eyes shone like glass underneath, I knew I had to make the call. You had been vomiting even after there was nothing…
Letters to Taylor: On Acceptance You’ve never tried to change me. Hey girlie, The last few days have been rough for you. Of course, “rough” has many different meanings. For you, it means that you haven’t wanted to eat much, your limbs have moved aimlessly without purpose, and seizures shake…
Letters to Taylor: On Grief Sweet T, It’s been a long day and we haven’t even reached the evening hours yet. I’ve only been home an hour and a half, but it took almost that entire time to do enough guesswork to make you comfortable again. And so now I…
Letters to Taylor: On Suffering My Sweet Girl, What a week you had last week. On Sunday evening, the dark circles around your eyes caused them to sink. I knew something was wrong but wouldn’t have guessed that you were nauseous. When you began throwing up, your entire body heaving,…
Letters to Taylor: On Dementia You are an expert. My Girl, It’s almost time to turn the lights out once again. Night has come and after preparing you for bed, I’ve paused with my usual thought. Is there anything else you need? I wish you could tell me, but we’ve…
Letters to Taylor: On Gratefulness You’ll never know how grateful I am for you. Dear TayTay, You’re sleeping now, though it’s noon, and it seems that’s all you’ve done lately. Next week is Thanksgiving and I’ve been working on the menu and shopping list. It might seem silly, but I…
Letters to Taylor: On Heaven I don’t know how you do it. My girl, We made it through your shower and now you are sleeping peacefully. Friday was such a good day that I thought maybe you were on an upswing. After not smiling for months, you smiled right at me!…
Letters to Taylor: On Anger You’ve never shown anger and yet you have so much to be angry about. Hey there, my girl. You’re sleeping again this morning after barely eating breakfast. The house is quiet and I’m trying to work in my office below your room. It’s not working…
Letters to Taylor: On Control You’ve lived each day with your body refusing to be under your control. Morning, Tay. I’m thinking you’ll wake up any minute, but it’s strange how I keep checking to see if you are still breathing. My eyes play tricks on me because the rise…
God put writing in my DNA. I don’t quite understand it, but He did. So while our family walks this journey of Taylor’s progressively slow decline, I felt impressed to write letters to my girl. I decided she would want me to share them with you. Letters to Taylor: On…
What a fun week I’m having! Monday I participated in Goodreads Hide A Book Day to celebrate their 10th anniversary! I hit up some of my favorite places and spaces, like Tree of Life Cafe, Jeni’s (only the nation’s best ice cream!), and Chic-Fil-A. (Can we say Hello to the…
