Today we are privileged to read more words that give Hope to Hurting Hearts. I want to introduce you to another awesome friend of mine, Kara Chupp. Common sorrows carry common bonds and Kara and I have much in common, especially through our God and Savior. Kara is married to her husband Jason, and they have five kiddos, four here and one in heaven. They also have a muppet-like-mess of a dog, non-breeding Madagascar Hissers (who have had over 100 babies), and a whole mess of stick bugs. Kara writes mostly about family, adoption, grief, education, traditions, literature, organization, Heaven, and most-importantly- her love for God. You can find her family adventures at The Chuppies. Today she gives us a post- Music gives hope when nothing else can reach. Now from Kara:
I wrote this post mentally on an elliptical machine.
My husband and I started a weekly-date-night-routine that includes a neighborhood walk and then a few minutes at a local exercise facility.
I brought my iPod this time.
Because last week I counted the seconds on the clock.
And somehow I wandered my way into our “Selah” play list.
It’s full of all the songs that were meaningful to me during those days, weeks, and months after our daughter Selah died.
And in moments it took me back…
I remember the first gift from God that came through music.
I was planning to pick up our older children from school and then the call came.
The one that said…
“Head straight up to Doernbecher Children’s Hospital”
And I felt my hands shaking, a pit in my stomach…
The little-one-so-loved in the carseat behind me.
I had known it deep down,
That something was wrong.
But it was like a vacuum, the air sucked out of me…trembling in fear.
And then I heard an echo…
Of the song that was playing right before my cell phone rang.
A children’s album…but powerful.
And I knew, in that moment when I was gasping just to take a breath,
That those words were from Him,
And it was like that all along the way…
And Selah died.
I could spend pages trying to tell you how much that hurt.
And how much it still does sometimes.
And even if I tried–
I wouldn’t have really explained it at all–
That kind of pain that leaves you with a silent scream,
A deep-down-moan, crumpled on the floor.
But…when we came home from the hospital
My heart felt numb.
I wanted to trust God.
I wanted to cling to Him.
I threw myself on our bed and read straight through Job.
But all I felt was–
And far from Him.
I tried to read His Word.
I wanted to cling to verses.
But in that deep place of heartache…
The only thing that could reach my heart was–
And you may have different pain…
Everyone enters the hard-hurt for different reasons.
And we walk through it on different paths.
For us it came with the death of our daughter.
But sometimes it’s those with the living-grief that I weep for most.
Those who live day-after-day with no end in sight to the suffering.
But all hurting hearts have one need in common–
And maybe you are like I was,
And nothing seems to pierce through the numbing shell of pain,
Just maybe His-music can pull your heart from the heavy dark?
As I said…
I was thinking about this post and was weeping on the elliptical as our daughter’s playlist took me back to those first few days of sorrow.
When my aching heart was a dam that needed to overflow.
It was the lyrics and the melodies of the songs that pulled me back to Him
It was what He used to help me feel again,
To help me sense His presence and love.
And so I just want to encourage those of you who are hurting, but who can’t seem to feel…
David didn’t just write his Psalms…
He sang them. He wept them.
He poured out his heart in them (Psalm 62:8).
He cried out day and night before God (Psalm 88).
And I have wept these Selah songs in the shower and on walks in the rain as the water drops mixed with tears.
I have shouted them in the closet and in the car and in the darkness…when only God and I could hear the music.
I have whispered them over dishes, hoping others won’t notice.
And I have cried through them on an elliptical machine, pretending to wipe away the sweat.
That drip. drip. drop. of melting hardness.
His patient love surrounding–
Through the melody.
There’s a way that God reaches hearts through music.
Because I know He pulled me close in the notes.
He wants us close and if you feel you just can’t feel…
Let His music draw you near.
Sing with me…
“I hope in God; for I shall again praise Him…
At night His song is with me” (Psalm 42: 5 & 8).
Sing in joy and sing in sorrow…let His music heal your heart.
Several hope-songs from my Selah Playlist:
I Will Lift My Eyes— Bebo Norman
Grace— Phil Wickham
Hallelujah Jesus— Evan Wickham
Praise You in This Storm— Casting Crowns
Blessed Be Your Name— Chris Tomlin
Still Here— Superchick
Cannons— Phil Wickham
Awake and Alive— Skillet
I Will Praise Him Still— Fernando Ortega
Bring Me to Life— Bebo Norman
Give Me Jesus— Jeremy Camp
In Christ Alone— Newsboys
You Make Beautiful Things– Gungor
What songs has God used to bring hope to your hurting heart?